Jason Lamar wishes he had never opened his mouth to the media.
After phoning the Sun this winter and using the sports pages to beg the Edmonton Eskimos for his release so he could play elsewhere, the club granted his wish by cutting him loose.
But after pounding the pavement for two weeks as a free agent, the 27-year-old import linebacker has realized he made a major mistake.
"I have talked to all (of the CFL teams)," he said.
"And everybody is saying they're full."
With training camps opening in three weeks and Lamar's spotty track record, the response from the seven other teams isn't a surprise.
"I wish I wouldn't have (gone to the media), because look what happened," he remarked.
"I wish I was going to camp (with the Eskimos)."
When Lamar - a former all-star with Hamilton in 2001 - demanded his release in February, he felt he would be better served on another team because of A.J. Gass's presence in Edmonton. They both play the same position.
"It makes no sense at all for me and Gass to be on the same team when we are both starters in this league," he barked at the time.
"It is A.J.'s house and it's his spot.
"Let me be free.
"I just need to be released to control my own destiny."
At that moment, Lamar still had at least another year left on his contract, which called for the Esks to pay him more than $75,000 per season.
After signing him as a free-agent last May, the Green and Gold paid his entire salary last year even though he didn't play a single regular-reason game because of ACL surgery on one knee.
Now without any paycheque or a chance to be on any team in any role, his public tune toward the Esks has dramatically changed.
"They have taken care of me big time," he commented. "I have to go get a job (outside of football now).
"It is sad to see it come to this. I am so young in my career for it to go crazy like this."